I had nothing in particular or anything related to the alter call.
I just went up and respond to God.
What was amazing that I started crying and the tears was just flowing itself. I did not force it or have the feeling to cry.
I was struggling... I didn't want to cry and just wanna stay calm throughout the whole alter call.
But as spiritual mothers and leaders came and pray for me, I began crying and not tearing anymore.
What was emotionless became emotional.
Lord, I don't want to dig out what had happened, those feelings and emotions.
They are all over already. No more and it won't come back anymore.
Just when I thought I've given my hand to God, the fact it's that I have not.
I was standing in the middle of the cross junction, have no idea which route to go but there's a hand offering me and telling me to place my hand on top of His and let him guide me.
His love fell upon me instantly. I was burning and I don't know how to stop all the emotions that I lm having at that point of time.
But thank you Lord for everything.
Even now I have to say, I have no idea what you are trying to do with my life and I don't understand a single thing.
But I know I will be different and what happen in the past will go to pass.
I can't turn back the time as much as I want to.
Let go let go ..
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