God be in control

Whatever it is going to happen it will.

Lord, as much as i want to prevent certain things from happening, i know i can't because i am not you.
i know the time will come.
If its mine, it will be at the end of the day.
(although i hope it will be mine)
but, what i can do now is to remain calm and follow what it is now. That's the best i can do.
i admit that it is so much better if i think in a positive way which i have to be.
i am still holding onto hope.
of course i do not want to end up being disappointed
but if i do, Lord please grant me a stronger heart to take the blow of disappointment.
i know i can't do it alone.
But i am glad that my friends are with me.
some aren't even close to me but they are glad and willing to offer their time and help when i need.
i appreciate them so much
of course to those really close friends, i'm glad that they are still here for me
even though they are so straight forward that makes my heart bleeds
but its the truth that they are telling me.
i know i will be alright

i cannot promise that i'll get over you
but i'll try
thanks for willing to be my friend knowing that i am such difficult person to handle.
you seen the worse me and still here for me.
i'll be a better person for everyone, for myself
i'll be alright soon.