Hey

Hey, stop being so negative about everything.
You told yourself to suck it up already so just do it.
Stop complaining and feel bad for yourself.
No one deserves that attitude of yours.
Just do it
Don't expect anything more
Just wait
Wait for God's timing to come
Be it 10 years or 20 years .. the time will still come.
You can do it don't feel pitiful don't feel abandoned, don't just don't.
God remembers you, He always keeps you in His heart. He knows, he knows.

All the best.
You can do it.

"Don't worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Today has enough trouble of its own."