I FAILED AGAIN!
WHY DO I ALWAYS FAIL AT CONTROLLING MY OWN ATTITUDE AND EMOTIONS?!
RAWR RAWR RAWR.
I'm sad, really SAD. Why? i dont know either :/
I always have a question for you. Your're so eager for me to learn something new in a brand new environment , but have you ever thought of whether i will enjoy it or not? Or will she be happy in school? I think I'm too selfish in thinking things like this. I rather not think of anything like this. I'm sad, really. I don't like to say it out or rather vent it out cus I'll end up hurting everyone and they will be affected it. DAMN IT WHY DID I FAILED TODAY?!
Wanted to rant everything out on twitter BUT..... nahhhh ohwell. Don't think it's a good choice. HAHA. ohwell i just have to learnt to be STRONG! i think....
I failed at managing relationships with people around me.. just sense that people are leaving WHEN I DID NOT SAY A THING. Just zip and shut up. hais, it's really my own MAJOR problem i have now. I really don't know why am i so affected to the things that happened 3 years ago? when people are there for me , but what was i doing? People gave up talking to me these days. CRAP which i just realize it now.. like NOW .. LIKE HELLO JOAN ITS TOO LATE! im a really terrible person.. i know -.- really.
I don't prefer showing my emotions out though u can see how i feel on my face if im happy or not. BUT.... sighhh i didnt want that to happen on me too. Like seriously why am i like that? I don't know what happened to me either. Hating my life... Things that happened around me and is happening now. What am i suppose to do like really.. SIGHHHHHH RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR..
I'm really really really troubled about everything and anything .. REALLY!
I'm being overly sarcastic these days which suck like u offend people whenever u go and you are. -.- I need to maintain really. to keep calm and smile~


Nightmares after nightmares... i can really never stop dreaming nightmares and weird dreams. i tried not to let it affect me but after each weird dreams and nightmares i woke up being angsty or crying which is dumb! Really, i find it super duper dumb. ARGHHH

i want to keep my own emotion and attitude safely with me. That's all, this will be great right? I suppose.